I Literally Do Not Have The Mental Capacity To Title Anything Anymore

[laliandra]

Oh man, I am so tired at the moment, and my best girl from school is here, and so I'm totally relying on Past!Lal having achieved things to put any substance at all into this post.

Luckily Past!Lal hasn't been too bad. At least she took some pictures to pretty up the place. And my friends continue to have opinions worth chronicling. Which is handy.

So! I went down to my boyfriend's parents house for a massive family party. After much preparation (during which Nat and I had the most middle-class argument ever. It was about bunting.) many friends of the family and neighbours and extended family descended on the house.

Every second conversation I had, summed up.

Me: Yes, I'm Nat's girlfriend.

Party Guest: OH! When are you getting married.

Me: *thinks* fuck RIGHT off I am TWENTY FOUR YEARS OLD.

Me: *actually says* You should ask (boyfriend's older brother) and (girlfriend)! *forced laugh*

I also met a girl who sat down by me and declared "I love this cake. I would marry this cake. I would make love to this cake." So apparently my willingness to discuss frosting sex is something even strangers can sense. Pictures! Party balloons, party tent, party dress and shoes.

Me: *posts (different) picture of self in dress to Twitter*
Twitter: CONGRATS ON THE BOOBS!
Me: *is very unsurprised*
Then on the following Monday I met my wonderful marmfish loves hanelissar, playwithfyr, hanelissarand altogetherisifor a day of geeky frolics in London Town. We had the best time. We went to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows at the IMAX in exciting 3D, picnicked outside of Foyles and left TDL bookmarks about the place.

And then we went to see the preview screening of Let's Kill Hitler! SO MUCH EXCITEMENT, OMG.I managed to take one, very faily picture on my phone but oh, wow, you guys, I was SO CLOSE to the front it was AMAZING.

You can read my recounting of this marvellous event at my tumblr. And if you want to talk about the episode, I can finally do that! YESSS. Not spoiling people has been really hard.

Still very conflicted about Steven Moffat. For those of you playing along at home!

The very next day, having got the bus back from London, which takes 6 hours and meant I fell into bed at 6am, I had a hanelissar to stay. She was good to me in my times of sleep deprivation, and we only wept on each other about our Big Bangs a very little bit. A forest for my pines etcetc. Also there was baking, as per. We made all manner of chocolate chip cookies. Pony cookies! Ship cookies!

For his birthday Nat got tickets to Sunday at Leeds Festival, hurrah. It. Was. Awesome. I mean, it was cold. But awesome. I got to see the National live, which I've wanted to do for an age, and I got to see my best friend Lil be in charge of lighting a whole stage, and go stand with her in the technical area which makes you feel all fancy. She is a fabulous lady doing fabulous things in a completely male dominated industry and I couldn't be prouder.

And at the end of the night we saw Pulp and it was the perfect festival experience, thousands upon thousands of people dancing and singing and yelling lyrics into the night.

LEEDS! MUD! SUNSETS! MUSIC!

In the morning I discovered that I'd sent Moog an email at 2am. I do not remember typing this email, but my inbox suggests otherwise. In it, among other, crazier things (and by that I mean all caps versions of the ridiculous AUs that we are not writing, oh no, that would be ridiculous, what, why are you looking at us like that), I continued a conversation that had started a week or so ago on Twitter.
playwithfyr

Comments

[hanelissar.livejournal.com]

LAL YOUR PROBLEMS ABOUT WRITING PORN ARE THE SAME AS MINE. (Ahahaha hello sentence I never thought I'd write!) Like, I can sort of read it with a straight face (although I still find that unbelievably challenging, I usually skim-read porn (um, sorry writers?) because I am too much of a child or something to be able to read it properly - I find a great first kiss scene SO much sexier than lots of hot sex) but I just cannot write it at all. I have tried, but I get as far as people starting to get naked and having to use words like 'cock' and I just start laughing at myself. Then again I cannot write any fic at all usually so maybe it's just an extension of that!

And yay for balloons and marquees and pretty dresses and awesome conversations about icing, but less yay for insane families believing in everyone getting married RIGHT NOW STRAIGHT AWAY WHY IS THERE NO RING ON YOUR FINGER YET BLAAGGHHH. :/

SO MANY YAYS STILL FOR DOCTOR WHO. Oh Lal, it was just the best ever, thank you so much for being there to share it with. I am equally unsure about my feelings on Moffat (I think he has misogynistic tendencies despite his constant denials, or at least a bad case of the 'lol incidental sexism what does that matter THOSE CRAZY COMPLAINING WOMEN AMIRITE?') and am a bad feminist because I worry that confronting them will mean having to give up on Doctor Who or at least like it less than I do. And I cannot do that, Doctor Who is one of the things keeping me sane in a world of crazy!

The pony-shaped cookies are SO. BEAUTIFUL. In my wildest imaginings of them they could never have looked as pretty and fabulous, I applaud you both! And Leeds Festival sounds fabulous, and GO LIL I am so proud of and impressed by women who do things like that and basically rock out in very male-dominated professions, she sounds fabulous and just the kind of friend you want to have. I'm glad you had such a lovely time with her!

Also? I lkove you Lal <3
xxxx

[laliandra.livejournal.com]

AHAHA, unexpected sentences all over the place!

The thing is, I read a bunch of NC-17 stuff! I have indulged in many a PWP. I am IN AWE of people who manage to write stuff that actually sounds hot because I just... Seriously. I cannot. *fades to black* I think I may just be broken.

Yay indeed for all of these things! But ugh for that. I think it didn't help that everyone was like, WAIT, you were here at the last one of these! And that was about 5 years ago! MARRY AT ONCE.

It was so, so wonderful, Han, I am so glad I got to clutch at your arm and go HMMM at the problematic stuff with yooooou.

am a bad feminist because I worry that confronting them will mean having to give up on Doctor Who or at least like it less than I do. YES, this is my exact, exact feeling. ARG.

Thank you my love, they were a lot of fun to bake! Once we got the hang of the cookie cutter, which I made poor Moog clean out.

My Lil is the most fab, and she tells me all of the gossip about famous bands, it is wonderful. She knows ONE other female LD. One.

I lkove you tooooooo, Hannalannalissar!

[hanelissar.livejournal.com]

We shall just have to be in awe I think, until the magical day comes when we learn. You are not broken, you are just not there yet ;) I don't know about you but I find myself taking baby-steps through fandom. Like first I was weirded out by fic at all (ahahaha oh baby Hannah so naive and foolish) and then slash in non-slashy canon confused me and then anything NC-17 at all and RPF is my latest barrier to come crumbling down. I am hoping that writing porn and/or being able to read it without finding the concept hilarious (seriously why am I such a child??) will be next! So maybe writing porn which comes out hot and does not feel ridiculous to write will be your next step! I'm sure the day will come, and we shall all be very proud of you when it does :D

(And so happens another conversation I never envisioned having!)

I am so glad also! And I hope we can do it again one day, watching Doctor Who with fannish people is just the best. Also I watched Doctor Parnassus this evening and started flailing when I realised Andrew Garfield was in it and NOBODY IN MY FAMILY UNDERSTOOD LAL! D: And they were all bored and hated it and I was just crying with the awesome of it and I wish fandom had been with me!

Lkove you lots and lots lallyallyandra <3
xxx